It’s been a while since I’ve written here—life pulled me in a hundred directions, and in the middle of it, I lost touch with my rhythm. I’ve been busy with work, I’ve been struggling with daily nausea, and I’ve fallen away from mindful eating. If I’m honest, I’ve found myself binging again, too.
That part is hard to admit, but it’s the truth. For me, food freedom and mindful eating aren’t just practices—they’re lifelines. When I drift from them, I feel it. I feel disconnected from myself.
And yet, here I am, writing again. That’s the point I keep coming back to: the important thing is not that I never slip, but that I never give up.
Healing Isn’t Linear
I used to think once I figured out mindful eating, I’d be set forever. But healing doesn’t work like that. It’s messy. It loops back on itself. There are good weeks, and then there are weeks where old patterns sneak back in. That doesn’t erase progress—it just means I’m human.
I’ve been reminded lately that challenges with my health, stress, and life in general will sometimes knock me off track. And when that happens, I have a choice: I can label myself as a failure, or I can see it as part of the journey and gently step back onto the path.
Why I’m Not Giving Up
Every time I return to mindful eating, I feel more grounded. Every time I choose to pause before a meal, even for a breath, I remember that I’m capable of showing up for myself. Every time I share here—even after weeks away—I remind myself that honesty and persistence matter more than perfection.
Not giving up doesn’t mean forcing myself to “do better.” It means allowing myself to begin again, no matter how many times it takes.
If You’re Struggling Too
Maybe you’ve been feeling off track lately. Maybe you’ve slipped back into old patterns or feel like your body is working against you. If that’s you, I want you to hear this: you’re not alone, and you haven’t failed.
The most important thing you can do is not give up. Take one small step today—pause before your next meal, sip water slowly, breathe, or even just notice what you’re feeling without judgment. These tiny choices add up.
One Bite, One Moment at a Time
I’m reminding myself that food freedom doesn’t come from doing everything perfectly—it comes from the decision to keep showing up, one bite and one moment at a time.
So here’s to beginning again, as many times as we need to.
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